This Doesn't Happen to Normal People

But what DOES happen to normal people? Email: iamthecoloursapphire@yahoo.com

Monday, July 30, 2007

Sapphire Sins

Just another day in my life. This was one of those days when I thought that maybe a new life, a different life, wouldn't be so bad. But where the hell had I put the receipt, and could you return something that was over twenty years old? Where do you go to get a new life when your old one has you so puzzled you don't know how to fix it?
Wish I knew.

Laters

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Consumer Affairs

Ah, customer service.
It used to be "No, you cannot have that MRI."
Now it's "No, you cannot have assistance with your vehicle."
Either way, the principle's still the same.
Laters

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Cut

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore
A fragile flame aged
Is misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists
I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists
I find it when
I am cut

Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists
I found it when
I was cut

Laters

Friday, January 05, 2007

Mein Lehrer

In The Story of O, the main character gets her labia pierced and then has a ring attached to it with the initials of her Dom. I got my labia pierced over a year ago, but I've been wearing an open 'horseshoe' to symbolize my owner-free status. Now I wear a captive ring with a tag that reads "Colin" on one side and the initials "LSB" on the other. I call Him "Mein Lehrer", and He teaches me something new every day; I learn more about myself, my servitude, and how to please Him in every way. Really, I couldn't be happier.
Laters

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Do You Remember the Time?

"They will love me because they can submit to me. You will submit to me because you love me."
Is that why you chose me, or why you left me? All you have now is the former...what happened to your dreams of the latter?
Laters

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Finishing

The man between my legs shoves himself into my ass so hard I can hear as well as feel it tear. The pain explodes just as the man at my mouth does and I choke on both his semen and my scream, his ass slamming down again on my chest, knocking the breath out of me. For a while I can't feel anything, think anything. I'm frozen, paralyzed. Not-quite-numb. It could have been hours or merely seconds later when I'm slammed back into myself, feeling cum and blood leaking out of my ass. The men are gone; I'm alone. Still naked, still bound, still blind. Now bleeding.
All that, and I'm not even sure when they're going to kill me.
Laters

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Please, Sir, may I have some more?

Tell me what to do. Put me on my knees and force me. Bind me, choke me. Fuck me-my mouth, my cunt, my ass. Hurt me. Rape me. Beat me. Use me. You have no idea how long it's been, for me. Since He left, and even in the leaving I yearned for the pain. So, please, invisible man, bring on the pain.
He heard me begging. And when he put the knife to my throat, I was frightened but not surprised. Hadn't this been what I wanted? Eyes closed, but with the blindfold they'd be no use anyway. Skin tingling, so sensitive to every breath of air as my clothes were carefully cut away. I was laying down, somewhere...the back of a van? That's the only thing that made sense. Naked and bound, I wait with a sort of terrified anticipation. But for oh, so long!, nothing but the wind on my exposed flesh. I lay there, arms above me, legs spread wide with my knees bent and my ankles somehow attached to my waist or my ass. The longer I wait, the more aroused I become. And then I've waited so long I don't even realize I've fallen asleep until I'm wakened by the simultaneous sting of the whip and climax of my orgasm. I'm screaming and I can't tell why, but I'm so overwhelmed by terror, excitement, climax, pain, I can't help but scream. The fingers are removed from my clit as the whip swishes through the air again, grabbing for the area the fingers had just vacated. Only a whimper this time. I hear a voice, two voices, telling each other what a dirty little whore I am, to be so drippingly wet. I open my mouth to protest but never get so much as a syllable out: a large, salty cock fills the conveniently gaping hole. As the man rocks back and forth, I feel his knees just below my armpits, his ass rising up and crashing down on my chest as he takes his pleasure with my mouth. Dirty little whore that I am, I lick, swallow, devour that cock with my lips and tongue, taking it as far as it can go, farther, until it's all in. The man fucking my mouth has yet to come when I feel another, larger man, kneel between my legs. This one gently explores my lower contours, touching with his hands first, then his tongue. I'm near ready to come again when the man on my chest abruptly pulls out of my mouth and slaps me so hard my ears ring. No sound after that, save for the ringing in my ears. The man between my legs using my way-too-obvious arousal to lubricate his own penis. I know this because of the way it keeps touching my thigh. As the first man returns to fucking my mouth, this second uses his cock to tease me, rubbing it against my swollen clit...
Too bad it's so late, or I wouldn't have to finish some other time...
Laters