I want to weep. I want to lay down and cry and cry and cry until I fall asleep. And then I don't want to wake up. Ever.
I saw my knight online just now. And he IMed me with "long time no see". Duh. Then he proceeded to complain about his life and then he left. Why do I do this to myself? All I could do is care, and try to comfort him. Obviously I'm not going to be able to provide much comfort, but...still I try. Should I make any further effort? Would it do any good? He never responded to either of the emails I sent him. And now this. Does he still-did he ever-feel that way for me? I just don't know. State of my life I suppose.
Laters