I tried to post last night while feeling alone and despondent, but it fucked up. So here's the gist of what I might have been wanting to say:
Playing around online I came across this:
"you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled
without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie
I know the truth now
I know who you are
and you don't love me anymore
it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool"
and now I'm sitting here trying to convince myself that it doesn't apply directly to me.
Laters