I'm going to get a T-shirt that reads "God's a Sadist and I'm His Favourite".
I'm homeless. Jobless, though that's nothing new. I can't even get Amethyst back in school because we'd have to have an address. Who is to blame? Raven. Of course. But I love him. Or I believe that he loves me, which I accept as the same thing.
And my dad (who used to be my hero--
"Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that I'm all right
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it allNothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect"), was crying on the phone, begging me to come back home and not into who-knows-where with Raven. What can I do? I can't please everybody. Apparently I can't even please myself. And Amethyst...what have I gotten her INTO? *sigh*
I'm a fool.
Again.
~Laters