Okay, what am I thinking about? God. God and suffering. Does god CAUSE suffering or simply allow it? The idea of Job and the torture god put him through-and all just so god can glorify himself-suggests god causes the suffering. Because if you suffer and still love god, god is...what? An asshole? But even if god only ALLOWS the suffering, allows these people he supposedly loves to be horribly, horribly in pain, what-again-does that say? It's just simpler not to think about it, to let god exist or not independent of me. (Although every now and then part of me wishes I could believe. Leftovers from my upbringing, I suppose.)
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