Oh, god, what is so fucking wrong with my life? WHY can't things happen to me like they happen to normal people? Why amd I fucking married men because I hate their wives instead of making love to my own husband-and have my husband be FireOpal? Why am I allowing Raven to be here, when all I want is FireOpal? Will FireOpal ever show up? God. This whole situation is so fucking wrong. "I love you, but I'm not going to talk to you or be with you or step up and do anything that's really involved in keeping a loving relationship working." Fuck it. Fuck it all.
Wish I were suicidal.
Again.
Laters