*sigh*
Yes, we have reached-once again-the downward spiral. FireOpal has told me now that there is no possible way we can ever be together. He set up his life that way when his previous relationship ended. So. I will be with Raven. I will be what he wants me to be, and hopefully I will lose all myself doing it.
Only...it will be difficult. To ignore FireOpal. To be with Raven, a man I do not love. A man I will not love. A man I could never love. Well. They say the harder the work, the more worth it. Fuck it, we'll just have to see.
To distract myself...and no more fucking liquor. Dammit.
Laters
Yes, we have reached-once again-the downward spiral. FireOpal has told me now that there is no possible way we can ever be together. He set up his life that way when his previous relationship ended. So. I will be with Raven. I will be what he wants me to be, and hopefully I will lose all myself doing it.
Only...it will be difficult. To ignore FireOpal. To be with Raven, a man I do not love. A man I will not love. A man I could never love. Well. They say the harder the work, the more worth it. Fuck it, we'll just have to see.
To distract myself...and no more fucking liquor. Dammit.
Laters
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